I'll be a brand new day

If it makes you less sad
I will die by your hand
I hope you find out what you want
I already know what I am
And if it makes you less sad
We'll start talking again
And you can tell me how vile
I already know that I am

I'll grow old
And start acting my age
I'll be a brand new day
In a life that you hate
A crown of gold
A heart that's harder than stone
And it hurts a whole lot
But it's missed when it's gone

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad you that can forgive
Only hoping as time goes
You can forget

If it makes you less sad
I'll move out of the state
You can keep to yourself
I'll keep out of your way
And if it makes you less sad
I'll take your pictures all down
Every picture you paint
I will paint myself out
It's as cold as a tomb
And it's dark in your room
When I sneak to your bed
To pour salt in your wounds
So call it quits
Or get a grip
Say you wanted a solution
You just wanted to be missed

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget
So you can forget
You can forget

You are calm and reposed
Let your beauty unfold
Pale white like the skin
Stretched over your bones
Spring keeps you ever close
You are second hand smoke
You are so fragile and thin
Standing trial for your sins
Holding onto yourself the best you can
You are the smell before the rain
You are the blood in my veins

Call me a safe bet
I'm betting I'm not
I'm glad that you can forgive
I'm only hoping as time goes
You can forget

Feeling very melancholy today, knowing that even though I send out the morning message that I wont get anything back... I don't have to try once, I have to try multiple times, well that is starting to get harder and harder. you know how I feel, but I guess you like watching people struggle and suffer through things.

yesterday I worked from 10-9, with no break, no food. WTF I asked for one multiple times, I'm like I haven't eaten today, I need food. but they just look at me like I'm retarded. I'm skinny I don't have a reserve of fat or food to eat away. Then you expect me to watch to sections on the floor, no look you need to listen to me if I am going to be working all day long, I know what I can do and what I can't do. So don't try to make me do something that is going to be a hell of a lot harder than things should be.

today I work 9-10 but I get a break, I am just kind of disgusted with the lack of management or care.

I dunno I guess I miss you.. I guess I want everything to be happening instead of sitting and waiting and thinking... my mind wanders to much and in horrible places.. and I thought you knew that.