It feels like it is monsoon season, cause when it rains it pours. I'm trying harder and harder to keep my head up and look for the light at the end of the tunnel, I feel like I am just going to fall out of it one day and either hit the ground hard, or land on a cloud. At least there is a little light in the tunnel.
I have no idea what was going on at work today but the waitresses were in a piss poor mood and treating me like crap, I have no problem doing things for them but when they don't even bother to empty their plates, which is their job, it starts to get old about 4 hours in. For some reason when you are on dish your like the whipping boy of the restaurant.
Yes I've made mistakes, and yes I'm not perfect, but I'm trying my best to better myself.
You know what I think I like about comics, the fact that these people who have powers that only a person could dream of having, are strangely mortal and have hearts that beat, break, heal, and love just like we do. They have everyday problems like everyone else does. They lose friends and family on a regular basis. I know it is purely fiction but the fact that you can relate to some of the things happening in those 32 pages sometimes really makes the book that much better when reading it.
I guess I'm just ending with "I just want to believe"
Thursday, September 30, 2010
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
Sorry I told, I just needed you to know...
Went on a picnic Sunday which was pretty fun, got a lot of things out in the open instead of behind closed doors where they don't belong. But let me tell you I do love seeing Christina in green :)
Yesterday at work I was prolly in one of my worst moods yet, and what tops it off is when I say I am in a bad mood and I don't want to talk about it that means I don't want to talk about it because what is bothering me is none of you business, so don't try to probe or your going to make matters sooooo much worse, and thats what happened someone decided they wanted to probe after I told them to back off and I called them out and told them just to leave me alone. I'm getting sick of the stupid people I work with, "hey lets pull fish sticks that are to be cooked frozen on the evening pull cart and let them thaw out" I mean come on are you retarded? Really? ReallY? WTF or even better I do alllll the buses for bonanza but when they got short on servers I stopped doing the Sunday bus because it is only like 20 people, but the cook who replaced me on Sunday morning manages to screw up the meals because he puts sauce on the freaken chicken, he knows they don't get sauce. I am just getting sick of the careless attitude that some of my fellow cooks have. It is your freaken job just do it, your paid to do it.
I love this song, It sometimes takes a long time to remember songs that you listened to say 5 years ago.
Bowling last night was terrrrible I have a 140 average, not bad but not great I bowled a 138, ok didn't break average, so not good, next was 146, broke average and carried a few pins over to save my last game. but my very last game was 100... I haven't done that bad in so long. The lanes were so dry at the end that my ball wasn't hooking into the pocket and I was getting no pin action. I think I screwed up my ring finger when I threw the one ball cause it is all stiff and rather difficult to move.
It's funny how the weather sometimes reflects your mood. Yesterday was just terrible so it rained all day, It made me want to play soccer really bad. Back in high school there was nothing better than sliding in the mud diving for the ball and just getting up with a sense of accomplishment and mud stuck all over you. You could take every bit of frustration and stress that you had on that ball or if you were playing right on the player. The best thing about being the goalie is the fact that you don't get carded, because you were going for the ball, if they just happened to be in your way oh well.
At walmart they are selling x-men the animated series, which I think is incredible, when I was little I use to watch that; spiderman, batman, iron man, and a few other comic cartoons. It makes me happy seeing all of these getting released to dvd, I mean shows today are just terrible, with little exception to sitcoms, but I remember things being a lot better when i was younger... but then again he-man was considered good way back in the day...
Sometimes I think the path to heaven leads directly through hell. I just hope that the journey is quick, and I believe the suffering will be worth it.
Yesterday at work I was prolly in one of my worst moods yet, and what tops it off is when I say I am in a bad mood and I don't want to talk about it that means I don't want to talk about it because what is bothering me is none of you business, so don't try to probe or your going to make matters sooooo much worse, and thats what happened someone decided they wanted to probe after I told them to back off and I called them out and told them just to leave me alone. I'm getting sick of the stupid people I work with, "hey lets pull fish sticks that are to be cooked frozen on the evening pull cart and let them thaw out" I mean come on are you retarded? Really? ReallY? WTF or even better I do alllll the buses for bonanza but when they got short on servers I stopped doing the Sunday bus because it is only like 20 people, but the cook who replaced me on Sunday morning manages to screw up the meals because he puts sauce on the freaken chicken, he knows they don't get sauce. I am just getting sick of the careless attitude that some of my fellow cooks have. It is your freaken job just do it, your paid to do it.
I love this song, It sometimes takes a long time to remember songs that you listened to say 5 years ago.
Bowling last night was terrrrible I have a 140 average, not bad but not great I bowled a 138, ok didn't break average, so not good, next was 146, broke average and carried a few pins over to save my last game. but my very last game was 100... I haven't done that bad in so long. The lanes were so dry at the end that my ball wasn't hooking into the pocket and I was getting no pin action. I think I screwed up my ring finger when I threw the one ball cause it is all stiff and rather difficult to move.
It's funny how the weather sometimes reflects your mood. Yesterday was just terrible so it rained all day, It made me want to play soccer really bad. Back in high school there was nothing better than sliding in the mud diving for the ball and just getting up with a sense of accomplishment and mud stuck all over you. You could take every bit of frustration and stress that you had on that ball or if you were playing right on the player. The best thing about being the goalie is the fact that you don't get carded, because you were going for the ball, if they just happened to be in your way oh well.
At walmart they are selling x-men the animated series, which I think is incredible, when I was little I use to watch that; spiderman, batman, iron man, and a few other comic cartoons. It makes me happy seeing all of these getting released to dvd, I mean shows today are just terrible, with little exception to sitcoms, but I remember things being a lot better when i was younger... but then again he-man was considered good way back in the day...
Sometimes I think the path to heaven leads directly through hell. I just hope that the journey is quick, and I believe the suffering will be worth it.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
What is it about the hottest days of the year
What is it about the hottest days of the year? it seems to be the only time your cat wants to sleep with you... or rather on top of you as mine does. I swear these fuzzy little critters are driving me insane, today, or rather early this morning the one drug my keys through the house so I couldn't find them so I was late for work. The other decided she wanted to go outside with my mom earlier that morning. So when I went to get in my car lo and behold there my stupid cat was walking around it. I am happy to say I still have some of my goalkeeping skills. I dove on her and grabbed her, I don't think she appreciated that to much; but the last time she got out some other cat beat the crap out of her.
We only have one oven currently at work so I have to put my potatoes in the bottom oven, thats a pain on the back, not to mention a pain when foodbar has it full. And apparently the ex-president of Perkins is now the President of metromedia the corporation of Bonanza. which means we might have to start serving breakfast.I have no problem with that, it just creates more hours for the employees.
Today after work I got some Chinese food, and it's about a 10 minute drive from New Berlin to Lewisburg and apparently when they have 3 tables in the restaurant that means they are busy cause I had to wait another 10 minutes at the register to get any service.... still nothing will ever be as bad as the time when Christina and I got Chinese food and it took like 2 hours and then I found a hair in my friggen kung pow.... So I guess it could be worse there could have been hair in my sweet and sour chicken.
We only have one oven currently at work so I have to put my potatoes in the bottom oven, thats a pain on the back, not to mention a pain when foodbar has it full. And apparently the ex-president of Perkins is now the President of metromedia the corporation of Bonanza. which means we might have to start serving breakfast.I have no problem with that, it just creates more hours for the employees.
Today after work I got some Chinese food, and it's about a 10 minute drive from New Berlin to Lewisburg and apparently when they have 3 tables in the restaurant that means they are busy cause I had to wait another 10 minutes at the register to get any service.... still nothing will ever be as bad as the time when Christina and I got Chinese food and it took like 2 hours and then I found a hair in my friggen kung pow.... So I guess it could be worse there could have been hair in my sweet and sour chicken.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
so...
So I finally sat down and brainstormed what my password for this thing could be. And eventually it hit me. whether or not anyone actually ever reads this it matters little. I am just going to use this as a vent and source to get out the emotion that I have such a hard time showing as of late. when I was younger I was touchy feeling, and I am still slightly but not as much, when you are touchy feeling at that age you get picked on a lot. people don't want you to wear your heart on your sleeve like I did. and so I closed up, I became callous and tried to harden my heart. In doing so hurt someone very important to me. But I'm trying to mend the pieces and rebuild a new foundation. I want to open myself back up maybe not so that my heart is back out on my sleeve but so that it is known that I have one and want to share it. last night I had a little realization about bowling, it's a lot like life, you may not always get a strike and that ball you threw did look like a really good ball, but you have an opportunity to pick up a spare.
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