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So I finally sat down and brainstormed what my password for this thing could be. And eventually it hit me. whether or not anyone actually ever reads this it matters little. I am just going to use this as a vent and source to get out the emotion that I have such a hard time showing as of late. when I was younger I was touchy feeling, and I am still slightly but not as much, when you are touchy feeling at that age you get picked on a lot. people don't want you to wear your heart on your sleeve like I did. and so I closed up, I became callous and tried to harden my heart. In doing so hurt someone very important to me. But I'm trying to mend the pieces and rebuild a new foundation. I want to open myself back up maybe not so that my heart is back out on my sleeve but so that it is known that I have one and want to share it. last night I had a little realization about bowling, it's a lot like life, you may not always get a strike and that ball you threw did look like a really good ball, but you have an opportunity to pick up a spare.