Well when it rains it pours, when it shines it burns

So as I sit here in my stupid csc class, I just think that some people need to take a hint, that some people need to realize people don't want to be treated differntly, just because they act differently, It makes that person think that they are weak. When in fact they can deal with a lot that just festers underneath the surface.

I have said this once before, never tell someone that they couldn't handle being you, expecially when you know that they have had past problems. The thing is the little things are the things to bring you down, and the bigger things are the ones that you face everyday, every hour, minute and second.

It smells like cigerets in this room, but hey maybe that is how the person deals with their stress. Some people need to have small out bursts of anger or excitement, if you bottle something up for so long then the presure becomes so great that it could just tear you apart.

Words can say a lot and actions can say so little

I just want to say that I am sorry, nothing less than. I know I irritate you, I know that I can bother you. but you are my favorite person, please don't be angry at me.

And like that my balloon was puntured and the air let out

So last night I over hear my one roommate say to another that "I can tell you an odd ball that lives here" I then discover that since I don't hang out with them anymore that some of them or all but a few think that I am strange. Well that is nice to know that they talk about me behind my back.

On top of that A&W with some good old shrimp would have been great, and that is where I was planning on taking Christina but oh I made a mistake and I forgot, that whenever I ask a girl to do something, Don't count on it...ever. Silly me.

I mean so I have asked a lot of people to go places at a lot of different times, most of the time I give them lots of notice and they say yes. But then I get let down anyways. I don't need or want that anymore.

Ok so really I need to rant

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aQxgv4QtKM8

Now people you gotta click in order to see what I am talking about, and don't worry it is just youtube.


Pull up your pants!

Alright rap music is rap music and will more than likely always be there but when this happens Blasphemy

they have gone to far. Or oh how about this
Rap that ruined the song click

These are not new songs people, these are just raps stealing of old and great songs, it should stay in the family, when Manson, Orgy, and Dope decided to do Right round at least they stuck with all of the original lyrics. It is bad enough that they turn a great song into a rap song, but to change the lyrics.

Oh and freaken crazy train, wow don't get me started there, you think that Ozzy the freaken Prince of Darkness wants some freaken rapper rapping while he goes "Ayee" and you have the spinning noise in the background, I can't explain it so I'll let this guy do it for you. Click If you didn't get it from that then click here. Click again

Any other thoughts?

Mornings suck

So my alarm goes off this morning, and I hit it a few times to make it stop talking to me. I go back to sleep then and I think, "Oh great I over slept" I get up and nope still 20 minutes to get to class. So I get out of bed pull my pants on and grab my hat and track jacket. I then you know heat up my coffee and head to math class for fun and adventure. Yeah I really hate math. I hardly even saw where I was walking this morning like if my songs hadn't changed when I got to the street I prolly would have forgotten to look both ways before crossing.

I think I've found the major that I want. http://www.pct.edu/catalog/majors/BM.shtml

I was just looking at the courses and they all look like something that I could grasp, not things that I am kind of forced into and you know have to do all crappy and half the work. I dunno I am beginning to think that the school of hospitality is really just a joke. Some people yeah there nice but can't teach, and others well they come off as unapproachable. Maybe it is just me, but It is very hard to say. Alls I know is I just want to pass nutrition get out of there and not have to look back.

Do I talk really quiet or something

I realized something today, that I get interrupted a crap load. It is almost like, oh it is just Adam, he isn't saying anything important so lets just cut him off. I dunno why but yeah I guess that does bug me. It almost makes me want to yell, "Shut up and honestly stop interrupting me! You don't like it when it is done to you then why do you do it to me?"

Rant on here so I don't have to in the real world.

I couldn't be anymore proud unless he was my little brother.

Tonight when I got back to my dorm my little cousin IMed me and told me that he broke 200, broke it with a 203. That is hard to do sometimes you have to have good timing and concentration, not to mention the right amount of wax, oil, and knowing where to throw your ball. But he did it, I started him off on bowling, it was me John and my youngest cousin Alex(just broke the 200) John and I were fairly good, After John went to Holland and bowled like every day. We always played on pent up aggression, usually against a parent who was booing our team. But the little guy who was throwing just like 6 pounds, then 12, then 14, is finally up all the way to the 16. The highest you can go. There is nothing left to be said except, he is going to be great.

I love tea!

So when I do get the chance to, I love drinking tea, I love oriental tea, I love European tea, If you can drink it and it is hot and soothing, then it is my kind of drink. So I have decided that I am going to create my own herb garden, Tea, Sunflowers and maybe a watermelon or two. This houses exterior is getting a face lift this summer when I'm not working.

I want to put up a little shed that I can work out of in our backyard, so that is where I can have all the tea and what not. I even think I know a way in hooking up the electric so that it runs off of the house via extension cord. On top of that If I actually start making good stuff, then I can prolly sell it to local shops.

On top of the tea and garden thing, I have Otakon 2009 to look forward to.

I'm going as Jushiro :)

And why do I deserve to Die?

Catchy title if I do say so myself. Been on my korn kick for a while now. I kind of want to get back to school, get back to my friends, but also I want to be here, going to hang out with Mark at the shop, seeing all of the ridiculous stuff people do. It is very entertaining. I miss my crazy friend, Christina the CooCoo. lol It is really fun doing things that catch her attention. :)

Who knows who cares.

I think that you learn from your mistakes, or that some do, Tragedy, not so tragic because it forms who you become, What mistakes and tragedies fill your life are the ones that will form you into the being you are. It is not all Tragedy and Mistakes though, it also depends on how you take it and how you respond to it, respond negative or positive. I realize that because we will never know what it is like to walk a mile in someone else's shoes we will never be able to know what that person goes through day by day. What torments and haunts that persons soul. I don't want your pity nor do I have any use for it. What I want is your understanding, that I am not a person to be taken lightly, that I have gone through a mans struggles when I was still in elementary school. I've adapted, but the pain is still there, that doesn't go away. You adapt to it, but it will always be there. I can be bitter if I choose to be, I can be angry, I have those rights in my opinion. A person who needs help and doesn't ask for it is foolish, a person who needs help and seeks council is wise, same stories different days.

Sometimes in church you will hear them talk about giants, these giants are metaphors, I have a major giants, Anger, Grudges, Wrath. All three are horrible, but all were brought and let in through the door that hurt opened when it introduced itself into my life. I've had giants that have festered for more than a decade under the surface, sometimes they burst, but it is never the entire thing, if the entire giant were to come out I doubt that there would be anything left. Blind Rage that is what it is, a blood lust.

I don't care if you are a girl or a guy, black or white, crap you could even be purple, everyone has problems, some are more dramatic than others. But they are just that, problems, and problems can be solved, others are just reduced.

My Taffy Cat, and the wanting of lots of little kittens

I was just thinking today as I lay here, that I wish I had like 50 kittens to play with right now. That would be lots of fun. Then I thought of my taffy cat, mom had to put her down recently because she was getting really old, like 20 years old and then she started letting herself go. She would never sleep with me or really come to me when I called her, but on the last night that I was home with her, she slept on my legs out in the living room, really I dunno why but it meant a lot. And I love her and am glad that she isn't suffering anymore. But when my fat little soxy cat has to go, then well depression is ganna sink in more than ever. 

Killing them in writing.

Ok so I have decided it, I am going to kill kyle. Let it sink in a little. How am I going to kill him? in the way that my English teacher in high school suggested. In my book. So I will get my closure, and then, if he bugs me, well I just resurrect him, then kill him or maim him again.

Irish and Angry, Just lucky I didn't reach across the table and beat you.

So yesterday I was getting made fun of at a childrens card game tourny. By some kid who all he does is play card  games and video games. Ok the thing that is wrong with this picture is well I have a life since well I am going to college, I hang out with my friends about all of the time up there, and well I do a lot more things than just play games. So my question is, where do people like him get off.